Hurting

I am hurting right now, and I really do not want to move or breath… I am so tired of trying and I fail, I seem to fail all the time… I don’t know anymore, how much longer I can sustain this… I am going to die all-alone… I feel deceived and lied too, I trusted and when I could be something they wanted I was abandoned…it feels so dark… warm, but kinda cold… I need her and I am stuck in this hell, but she seems to not want me the same way I want her… I am damaged and I think I always will be…